Letting Go

My final concert at my current school is tomorrow. This will be my 10th formal concert at the school. Over the last five years I have grown to deeply love the students of this community. I have seen them grow up, lose teeth, gain siblings, break bones, learn to multiply, learn to read, play the recorder, lose parents, tie their shoes, laugh, cry, sing, dance, and pray. They are challenging, funny, generally hard working, impatient, kind, friendly, forgiving, loving, curious, concrete, abstract, dedicated, and resilient. Being a teeny part of their lives has meant more to me than I can possibly explain.

I have not been perfect. Not a day goes by where I don’t think I could do more or be better. But, they remind me often through their singing and their smiles that I must be doing something right.

The trick of teaching elementary is that teachers are often forgotten by memories that don’t have their full long term capacity yet. This is ok. I am learning to let go of the fact that life is fleeting and change is inevitable. I feel like the contribution I have offered the music program and the community is simply a root and that now I can release it and let go. This is bittersweet, rewarding, and relieving.

I am so grateful to have grown so close to a community that the thought of leaving is difficult and powerful. I hope that as I move on that I will build another set of roots and grow deeply entrenched in the lives of a new group. For this is what it means to be a passionate, connected educator.

Transition

It was announced via email yesterday that I am among those transitioning from my current school to a new school. I wasn’t prepared to have the greater school community know of this transition just yet and I have been greeted by parents with everything from “congratulations!” to “what the he##, who is going to be X’s advisor next year” to just a plain sad face. The kids have asked about it and I’ve replied with “let’s talk about it in May.” I am sad to leave the students I love and have known for five years (some since they were toddlers in the pick up line). I have become entrenched in this community and they are a huge part of my life.

With all that said, I am thrilled beyond belief with the new opportunity ahead for me. I am leaving the music classroom after 9 years and jumping with both feet into technology integration. I will have the chance to grow close to a new set of kids and become part of the fabric of a new community. I am nervous, excited, and looking forward to challenge.

Transition and change is never easy. It is doubly hard when emotions are involved. I think this is a great opportunity to teach the kids about appreciating our time together and applying their lessons in a new setting with a new teacher. For me, it is a great time of reflection and appreciation in the midst of anticipation.

And now, I return to regularly scheduled plan of teaching for 2.5 more months!